Before your Death

The truth that we are aware of
Life that we know shall come to an end
Nothing in hands we shall have then
Deeds they say shall speak there-on

Sad it is that we still pay no heed
We sure were told what we must read
But still we just pile up more weed
We don’t realize, it is our need

There shall come an hour verily we were told
To prepare for it and ourselves to mould
To stand before the Master of the world
For it is Him alone we can hope to hold

Another chance we shall not get
To live again in this world He shall not let
Make haste and pray for what you fret
Before your death and you are met

She

She thought she was in wonderland
At ease and peace with all in stand
Dew drops glittering on glossy green grass
Nature enthralling that took her in trance

Flowers that bloomed smiling at her
Birds seem to sing welcoming her
How was everything so perfect
Why did everything seem so correct

She sat under the shade of a tree
And noticed something come beside
A squirrel perhaps was back from its ride
It also seemed in a lively spree

It looked at her and ran around
Went back to hide and made some sound
Its gleaming eyes peeped at her
She thought it was in some kind of a stir

She breathed a sigh, the one of grief
And thought for a while about her strife
The solitude now was called loneliness
The peace she felt was now distress

She breathed again, this time of relief
And thought again this time in belief
A minute it took to get back her smile
She realised it wasn't worth that mile

A lesson she seemed to learn that day
Live in the present, keep the past at bay
When she smiled at life it showed her wonders
She finally learned to enjoy those thunders

Phantasm of Love

With grace she walked down the moon
And elegance that would cast a swoon

Beauty elite in the star studded night
Seemed like pulchritude was there to flaunt its site

She held his hand and he swirled her around
Under the moonlight and love to surround

With patience and ease, they danced with the breeze
Mesmerized and lost in each others thoughts

In heaven as they felt with bounties svelte
Suaveness in their speech and then a sudden breach

He knew not what was to come
She knew not that life dint allow her freedom

Many dreams shattered his life all battered
They just moved leaving everything scattered

As though lightning struck and their world destruct
To offer them solitude on a turn that was abrupt

Blanched and dismayed or just a haggard life
He saw himself in an overwhelming strife

Where are the stars, where is the light
How could she leave him alone to fight

He saw her go to never return
She left him there with a heart that burn . . .

Am I or am I not..

Its such a weird thought
what am I trying to sought
it lies there in front of me
but I wish to see it not

will someone wake me up
tell me its a dream
I promise not to sleep
if you just tell me this is a dream

can this be true although I wish it were not
but it tells me, its over n I have lost
not that it was mine not that I tried
but I still feel the loss, a thought that seem to have died

there’s agony on the other side
that anguish is perhaps more than my tide
can I wish for it to subside
with a hope that this wish He wouldn’t override

Melancholy

Today again I heard a cry
A bruised heart's moan
A heavy sad sigh....

There's wind and rain
And buds in pain
A smile that's faint
And beauty stained

A tear that rolled
Down the cheek
Just that one
Could a million words speak

In the darkness of the night
There was a plea for light
Alas! In vain
'Coz none cared his plight..

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Aap se hai mohabbat aapse hi hai inkaar
Aap se hai gila bhi aapse hi hai takraar

Dil chaahe bhi milna dur rehna bhi chaahe
Hain baatein kuch kehna kuch sunna bhi chaahe

Hai kaisi ye kaifiyath kuch samajhna na chaahe
Jo dil mein hain baatein zubaan par laana na chaahe

Suna hai isi ko kehte hain mohabbat
Hai kaisi ye ulfat ke iqraar karna na chaahe

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Falak pe chand taaron ki baaraat saji hai
Chehre pe unke aisi hi kuch muskaan saji hai

Naa jaane kya sukoon hai unke intezaar me
Mit si jaati hai har thakaan unke deedaar se

Naayaab si lagti hai zindagi unke saath se
Aabaad hai hamari dunya unki ek haan se

A Moan..

Was the fault all mine
All I did was did not lie
Still I did see a tear shine
All I did was refuse to fly

Just a word of dislike
Another to avoid my heart strike
Then how did it hit so hard
Why, why does it feel so sad?

It can’t b that I’m so bad
Just a greeting can’t make one mad
How can my presence be so disliked
That one might wish to turn blind

Wonders are not what i expect
Reality has always been my percept
Then y does it seem to fall like this
There is something I know that is amiss

Together and Apart

It did not matter anymore
How much ever things were bitter or sour

There was pain for one and another remorse
And in it were few hearts demerse

And talks that led to mere dissension
That later they would not want to mention

They weren’t to move to being silentious
But it does seem that they’d now be cautious

A thought or two before they speak
But many more in their mind if you peak

There somehow still is something that binds
Something that they know still it hides

If it’s like this then it may remain
But for longer still they will abstain.

With Her...

All she wanted was a little time of mine
I couldn’t think of how, that could be so divine

It wasn't that I couldn’t, but somehow I knew I wouldn’t
May be just a thought, perhaps I couldn’t take lament

I knew she liked it when I was around
But I still dint find out what left her spell bound

It was just talks that we would share
Not fantasies or dreams, no I wouldn’t dare

A meet or two was all we had
Then how could my absence make her so sad

And then we took a journey, of those kinds that's memorable
A journey perhaps which, I can not call impeccable

Again it was nothing, just gossip and some smiles
But yes, I wouldn’t deny I didn't mind the miles...

Adieu..

Time's just moving, days passed by
There was so much to say and so much to try
I didnt realize, i dint see it fly
All i know now .. its time to say gud bye

It is'nt that i'm complaining
I know you were too engrossed
There were other things that were important
Nothing that could be paused

Its just that there's a gap
I think there's something missing
There's so much more to all this
But i also know its nothing

The time i knew you i'll always cherish
The fact dat your presence was always a joy
I wish for you happiness that'll never perish
Thats what voices my heart dats a little coy.

a fluttering mind..

wouldnt say i am sick of life
perhaps its just that m goin through a strife

sometimes when your hating it all
you keep building and all it does is fall

thats when they say we must hold on
to what? i wondered.. may be just untill its gone

you know it will move, it does'nt have a choice
but thats again the time you have the most painful voice

its frustrating to see plans thwart
but hey.. i was told, thats also an art

lets see what the new day has to bring
its all planned up there, winter or spring...

Phantoms of Reality..

I look at my right, and what do i see
that beam of light, reaching out to me

I look at my left, and what do i see
a grey cloud that seemed kept, with a silver lining and gleam

I stood beneath what they call sky
thats home to birds, with ecstasy they fly

To reach the zenith, without any care
To live till they die, without any fear

I hear those drops as they fall down
Piercing out of that cloud and all its bound

The splash that it makes in that puddle of water
Losing its identity, from a drop to a wholsome body of water

I see nature showz me contrasts too
Its not just life that shows me a few

When its humid and hot and summer all through
You never know which eve would show you those drops of dew.

When you care...

When you care, ur there..
When you care, u share...
When you care, you stand by them, although they never stood
when you care, you miss them..
when you care, you wish bliss for them..
When you care, you may not say..
when you care, you sure will stay..
But when you dont, it aches..
'coz once you did, so it later hurts....

My Autumn of Thoughts

Seems like a season of thoughts
i close my eyes and see it all flash

that gate we'd walk through
that ramp we'd walk down
those endless stairs..
and those technical fairs

there were things always on our mind
but we had each other to unwind

those silly fights
and those samosa bites
and with it a pack of frooti or appy
that was all required, to make us happy

and how about that internal exam tension?
cramming stuff in that little two hour break session??

those chirpy talks at the bench
those rains in which we were totally drenched
the money calculation that we would do
those auto fights were so much fun too

I know its all about reminiscing now
and yes on that i sure can vow
that was time beautifully spent
not a word of regret and no lament.

When I am alone... and when I am not....

I long to hear her breathe
I long to hear her call me what she loved to
I long to hear those sweet nothings
I long to hear that prolonging silence

I wish it was all like earlier now
I wish she'd want to get back to me
I wish she'd be there even when she's not
I wish she also misses me

I don't know what went wrong
I don't know what suddenly happened
I don't know why things are like this
I don't know if i can take it any long..

Every time the phone rings, i wish its you
Every message beep, i feel its you
Every mail that drops in, moans to be from you
I don't know why you surround me all the more

May be i am behaving crazy
May be this is just too silly
May be my heart's just feeling a dove
or May be its just that i am in love.

I tell.. I ask.. I wish.. I know...

Its been many days now
an unusually long gap
I dint know it could be this way
I never thought I would wait

I tell myself I miss that talk
My heart says it does too
I tell myself I miss those laughs
My heart says it was one among the very few

I asked, then why did you not say?
My heart said, only if it knew
how much it all meant to me
I realized after time just flew

I wish there was something
to pull me out of this state
those thoughts surround me all day
that voice echoes all night

I don't deserve to be treated this way
how could this be my plight
not that I wish for anything else,
no not even for a sight.

I know it’s all over now
I don't know why I still wait
I'm sure something will come my way
albeit it'll be a little a late.